I’ve spent the entire day working out my legal future. First, I got a call from Legal Aid in the county asking me if I was interested. I told them the truth, that after I got the call from Annapolis I started to consider whether I wanted to start my own practice right away. I asked for a few more days to think about it. She is so nice, that I actually feel bad not taking the job. But, the reality is that they deserve to have someone work there who is not biding their time waiting for an opportunity to jump ship and go on to something else, at least someone who is able to make a year or two long committment to them. I don’t think I can do that right now.

After I hung up with them, I got a call from a legal recruiter in D.C. I have an interview there on Wednesday. This is my first time using a recruiter well, because, the last time I applied to one they rejected me right away. I mean, I sent my resume and two seconds later is was like, uh, no, don’t you know you suck? So I was suprised when this one called.

After that, I got a call from the Public Defender’s office asking if I had driven to La Plata and what did I think. They said we would like you to work for us and that’s the only position we can hire for right now. I told them that I couldn’t live there, wouldn’t move there, and certainly couldn’t commute. She completely understood. I then asked about volunteering in the Baltimore city office and she was very excited and said that would be a great way to get into that office once they are allowed to hire. Well, I don’t even know if I want to ultimately get hired. But, I feel like I’m starting to lose my edge. It’s not a good feeling. Enough with the lying around all day already!

Today I sent out a million resumes to other recruiters, I applied for temp positions and document review contract jobs. I need to do something to keep me from going crazy, and to get me focused on what it is I want to do with my life. I feel like I’m making some progress since I now know what I don’t want to do, and that’s something, isn’t it?